Bonkers

How am I doing? Well, I feel tired. Today while Koen was napping, I put on Treehouse and told Kai to be quiet and I fell asleep on the couch next to him. I don't do that. EVER. My heart rate remains between 100-130bpm but I feel really used to it now. I am unable to write because my hand is still shaking mildly.

I found day care for the boys today. She is a stay at home mother of 2 girls who are the same ages as my boys. She is able to take Kai to preschool so I am thankful for that. I somehow have to aquire 2 more car seats for her though....She is a wonderful woman who used to be a preschool teacher. They do live 4 km in the opposite direction which just means we will be leaving the house at 7:30am each day. I can't believe it's coming so soon and somehow I have to wean Koen before then. Or something. Maybe I will continue feeding him in the evening? Never thought I would but I'm in no rush to stop. Being sick these last few weeks has made me really feel like we are done having kids. We will see.

I love my boys so much. Although, Kai is driving me bonkers. He keeps taking things away from Koen and knocking him to the ground. I am sooooo sick of disciplining him. DRIVING ME BONKERS.

Oh ya, today when visiting the new day care lady, Kai noticed that their bathtub had tons of fun toys. Kai announced, `I'm so dirty!!!'. He wanted a bath:)

I've only made one dinner in 3 weeks. Poor Gary.

Watched `House' tonight. Loved it. I didn't wach much last season but I loved the premiere today.

Will have pictures of the boys tomorrow. Too tired to go to the other room to get the camera to upload photos.