Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Kai's Party Day

Today was Ka i's party day at preschool. This happens at the end of every month. They sang three of the songs that they had learned, two of which were about apples. When they first came in, they had to put their toes on the line of tape. Kai was holding a car (Ramone) most of the time until the teacher took it away.

Here you can see Kai checking if everyone has their toes in the right place. He pushed Sydney (the girl to the left in the picture) to `help' her get on the line. He also pushed the hat off of her head. Kai says that Hikaru is his favourite friend, he is the boy in the rain boots just to the right of him. I wonder if it's okay to blog pictures of random kids...hmmmmm

Here Kai is trying to hold some fingers down because in a song, they were counting down from 5 to 1. I guess he doesn't know how to hold up 3 fingers!

It is called `Party Day' because they celebrate the boys and girls who had a birthday in the past month. Each birthday child comes forward and sits on the stool. Everyone sings `Happy Birthday' and then the child blows out candles and gets a cupcake. Kai looked really unimpressed as he was utterly exhausted.

Kai seems to have a bit of a fever right now, I hope its nothing because I can barely take care of myself right now!

While there, Koen just wandered around and `played' with the other younger siblings there. Next time I'll get video instead because I think it was pretty cute! By the way, I thought I would cry but there was no way, I was just too exhausted and frustrated from waiting at the doctors for too long. I would say the only downfall of preschool is that it's hard to get Koen to nap so both of them are pretty ridiculous by dinnertime.
Oh well. Worth it.
Finally, it's really strange hearing things come out of Kai's mouth that do not come from Gary or I. Does that make sense? It really makes me realize how much parents have to trust me with their kids. Also, it makes me wonder if Kai comes up with things on his own or whether preschool taught it to him. The other day, he said that sun and shade are opposites. He said he just knew it. I guess tv is always an influence too.
Bon nuit

Louise Dekens Chapman

...should not have taken the kids to the doctor with her. We waited an hour and then left. Koen missed a nap, Kai is too tired for preschool and I'm a sweaty, tired mess.

...has had dreams about Tyra Banks the past 2 nights. Last night I was teaching her how to use my camera (on a bus) and I was desperately hoping Gary would take a picture of me teaching her:)

...better get going..again.

Monday, September 28, 2009


(Check out his smile...he was so pumped that he could make music with the vent)

I feel 50% better but I feel like I'm only half alive. Does that make sense? I feel really out of it. I feel like my IQ has dropped 30 points. I don't really make a lot of sense. Anyway, my heart rate is still 100+bpm BUT I don't really notice it anymore. Worst part of all this is the insomnia. I'm exhuasted and can't fall asleep. I usually lay in bed for 2+ hours. I've lost a total of 14lbs in the 3.5 weeks that I've been sick.

My body craves very fatty things. Chocolate milk, pizza, McDonalds. Gross. I admit that I have sent Gary out to pick up a large pepporoni pizza or McDonalds' several times. I feel like I'm pregnant without the good part at the end. I'll be heading back to the doctor tomorrow although I have no idea what he will say. Keep doing the same thing? Oh man, I am REALLY craving chocolate milk now.

Over the past 2 days, I have been able to resume regular activities. Family walk to Extra Foods, church, cleaning bathrooms, vacuuming etc. It take A LOT out of me but I've felt so useless for so long.

Kai has his `party day' at preschool tomorrow. I hope Koen cooperates so I can get some pictures of Kai singing etc. Oh man, I hope Kai behaves. I can see him being ridiculous and yelling the song or something. I may have to threaten to take away Bubi (his blankie) again. I don't know if this is okay parenting or not, but nothing works better than that. Kai has driven me a little crazy lately. He is not listening. So frustrating. I'm assuming this is the age of it and it will pass.

Today we went to school to visit Gary and other staff members. Kai got to help Gary in the lab and he collected bunsen burners. What 3 year old knows all about Bunsen burners? I love it:)

(Koen taking advantage of the fact the Kai was having `quiet time'.)

We gave Kai his personal DVD player with `Cars' in it and told him that when he wakes up in the morning, just turn it on and watch it. We were hoping for an extra hour of sleep as he's always up before 7am. Well, in comes Kai at 5:45 am saying `Is it morning??'. Grrr.

We took some engagement photos on Saturday, check em out. Aren't they cute?

Yesterday Koen took two steps. I said `Gary, Koen just took 2 steps!!'. Gary said, `He did it for me the other day too, I thought he did it all the time.'. He never told me that my son walked for the first time?!!! I wouldn't say he is really walking though. He just shuffled a little. When he takes maybe 3 good steps, then I'll count it:) He brings me so much joy. His giggles and smiles go straight to my heart. I love this stage. I think 9 months of age is so much fun. He is a whole lot easier to take care of than Kai right now, that's for sure!

Okay, time to head to the couch to watch `House'. I'd say that the positive aspects to being this sick are:
1. Loss of baby weight.
2. Learn how to relax because I have to.
3. I can eat what I want.
4. Makes me appreciate my health (well, when I get it back again).
5. Makes me respect my thryoid.

Bon nuit.

Thursday, September 24, 2009


So my thyroid isn't getting any better so they put me on Propyl-Thyracil which slows down my thyroid (safe while breastfeeding!). The beta blockers I'm on make me feel so slow mentally. I have really noticed it in my writing..my spelling and grammar are way off. I feel like my eyelids are so heavy. I'm now taking both of these meds. I told my doctor I was supposed to go back to work in two months and he said not to worry, I should be all controlled by meds in one month. Okay, one more month. I can do this! He is making an appt for me at the endocrinologist (hormone doctor). Finally, I have no idea anymore what is my thyroid and what are the meds. I'm supposed to be taking note of when I go from hyper to hypo but it's so hard to tell with all these other symptoms. Mostly, I'll be looking for the symptom of feeling cold.

Today I was making cookies (for the first time in a long time!) and I didn't have enough eggs so I substituted it with a banana. Banana chocolate chip cookies do not taste good to me. At least Gary likes them. So ya, 1 egg=1/2 banana.

This is honestly my life folks...Kai jumping on me and Koen pulling out my hair or digging his hands into my mouth or nose. Love em. I guess one day they won't be doing this anymore and I'll miss it:)

Oh Kai bear. He looks SO much like Gary but acts so much like me. After preschool, I badgered him with questions...`What did you do?' `Who did you play with?' `Did you practice your song?' etc. Kai said, `Mommy, I need you to be quiet'. I asked him why. He said, `I just need time to myself.'. Wow. He sounds like me.

Two other things:
Kai on the couch...`I'm a little bit hungry over here!'
Kai putting his finger through his burger like a ring...`Don't I look fancy?'.

I'm try to really accept the fact that Kai is rough and that's okay. He's not doing it to be mean or to hurt someone. Yes, he likes to bug Koen but he doesn't want to hurt him. He will be the kid crashing the toy into someone else's and he thinks it fun to be rough, he's not trying to be mean. I'm getting it. Just takes time as I'm learning what little boys are like, I grew up with all girls. Also, Kai was a gentle little boy until he turned three a month ago and it all just happened at once. He loves body checking Koen and as long as he doesn't end up lying on top of Koen, I'll get used to it I guess.

Finally, this whole supply and demand thing for breastfeeding is a bit tough right now as Koen is sleeping through the night and I'm pretty much exploding every morning if you know what I mean. I try to pump out a bit before bed but it's a fine balance. Oh well, I've got lots of milk in the freezer for when I go back to work!

Better try sleeping. I love that both of the boys are fast asleep by 7:30pm each night...woohoo!!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


Okay, my sister Jantina wanted me to put this question out there....
She had an ultrasound at 7 weeks (due to pain and cramping) and they saw one baby.
She has been VERY sick and even had to go to the hospital for an IV (even on Diclectin, however you spell that)
She used the doppler today (she is a nurse) and found 2 different heartbeats in two totally different places. Maybe one could've been the placenta?
She is um, looking quite pregnant and she is just 16 weeks pregnant with her first:)

So, she is wondering if anyone had an early ultrasound showing one baby and then it ended up being two.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

My Seastar

Here are some pictures of Kai with his report card for swimming. He was in the first level; Sea Star. He didn't quite pass but really learned a lot. So proud of him for doing what his teacher asked him to do. I may have threatened to take away something important to him if he didn't behave:)

He was successful at moving in the water, splashing and being splashed, blowing bubbles, laying on his back (while teacher is holding him) and putting his ear in. He still needs to work on submerging his head for 2 seconds and jumping into the pool. I do have a video of him laying on his back but ya, too much work to upload right now. It was funny because I didn't want to look like the keaner mom so I was trying to videotape without anyone seeing:)

Kai wanted me to read the words from his teacher several times over the past few days. I thinnk he really liked his teacher. I liked that she was very firm with him and almost forced him to do things.

I've really realized that Kai needs to arrive at preschool and other things early. Maybe 5 minutes before it begins. That way he has time to process and prepare. Time for him to talk to a kid or two. It makes him much more comfortable. The one time he freaked out at preschool was the time I arrived 2 minutes after it had opened. Same thing with swimming lessons. He has this really weird habit of needing to know people's names. It makes him feel so much more comfortable to know just a few. By the way, did I mention that I am loving preschool? Next Thursday is `party day' where the kids will be presenting all they have learned so far. I'm def. taking my camera. I'm scared I'm going to cry with pride...I cry very easily:)

Oh Koen. He makes me smile. He's such a goofball! He has a runny nose, thanks to Kai (thanks to preschool). He is so easily consoled. He shared a blueberry and raspberry smoothie with me tonight so we will find out if he is allergic to milk!

No teeth yet for my cutie pie. Remember how I said that he slept 12 hours straight through the night for about a week? Last night he decided to wake me up twice:(

Koen looks so much like I did as a baby. My dad gave me a bunch of photos of me as a newborn in the hospital with my mom. Beautiful. There was even a picture of my mom breastfeeding which surprised me because my mom was such a private person.

Koen keeps trying to get up on his own but can't quite do it.
Okay, gotta watch The Biggest Loser. I'm not watching So You Think You Can Dance as much because I find that the dances are just getting a little innapropriate. It seems like the sexier it is, the more people like it. What are they teaching our teenagers?? No wonder they dance like they do at school dances....

Monday, September 21, 2009


How am I doing? Well, I feel tired. Today while Koen was napping, I put on Treehouse and told Kai to be quiet and I fell asleep on the couch next to him. I don't do that. EVER. My heart rate remains between 100-130bpm but I feel really used to it now. I am unable to write because my hand is still shaking mildly.

I found day care for the boys today. She is a stay at home mother of 2 girls who are the same ages as my boys. She is able to take Kai to preschool so I am thankful for that. I somehow have to aquire 2 more car seats for her though....She is a wonderful woman who used to be a preschool teacher. They do live 4 km in the opposite direction which just means we will be leaving the house at 7:30am each day. I can't believe it's coming so soon and somehow I have to wean Koen before then. Or something. Maybe I will continue feeding him in the evening? Never thought I would but I'm in no rush to stop. Being sick these last few weeks has made me really feel like we are done having kids. We will see.

I love my boys so much. Although, Kai is driving me bonkers. He keeps taking things away from Koen and knocking him to the ground. I am sooooo sick of disciplining him. DRIVING ME BONKERS.

Oh ya, today when visiting the new day care lady, Kai noticed that their bathtub had tons of fun toys. Kai announced, `I'm so dirty!!!'. He wanted a bath:)

I've only made one dinner in 3 weeks. Poor Gary.

Watched `House' tonight. Loved it. I didn't wach much last season but I loved the premiere today.

Will have pictures of the boys tomorrow. Too tired to go to the other room to get the camera to upload photos.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Hashimoto's Thyroiditis

Okay, this graph shows where I was in regards to my thyroid function and where I am headed. My doctor believes I will eventually be slipping into hypothyroidism which will not be fun. Fatigue. I will be put on meds to help alleviate that by increasing my thyroxine. You can see by the graph that I am kind of getting better... apparently. I'm on 3 X 30mg of Propranolol. I guess I don't tremble as much. Just have to watch my heart rate. Do you see that this process takes 6 months??!!!! I have no idea how I will teach if I dip down into hypothyroidism. It is amazing how your thyroid can affect so much of your life! My metabolism is going at full speed and I've lost about about 11lbs in 2 weeks. There have been a few people that said they wouldn't mind a dose of what I have:) Joking aside, it's not fun messing with your heart. I eat quite often and this has caused Gary to gain weight while I lose (all the fattening food we've been eating...McDonalds twice in a week for me!!:).

I have been sleeping fabulously at night..at least 8 hours straight. Thank you, Koen!! Apparently, getting exercise is healthy for you when you have hyperthyroidism so today I played a little bit of football (whatever it takes to rationalize it, I just wanted to play!). I didn't run at all, I just threw the ball or handed it off. Obviously I wasn't at my best but I wasn't too terrible. Gary didn't want me to go play but I managed to keep my heart rate below 160bpm so I really did watch out for myself. I really want to be able to go for a run but I just don't feel right. I hope that once I'm better, I can get back into shape quickly.

The reason I'm sharing so much of this hyperthyroidism is two fold:
1. If you ever have these symptoms, or someone complains about these symptoms, they can get help right away!
2. It is a huge part of my life right now. I think it is def. more manageable now but still, not fun.

There is another post with lots of family pictures after this one. By the way people, if you got to this point, I just need to say: ONE DAY, MAKE A COMMENT!!! Apparently about 150 people read this blog each day and usually only one comments. I NEED POSITIVE REINFORCEMENT. I AM A WORDS OF AFFIRMATION TYPE PERSON.
Bon nuit.


This evening, we took a few pictures of our cute little boys. I think they are so adorable. Somehow Kai has grown up so quickly these past few weeks. Maybe it's the preschool and swimming lessons but boy, he seems like a little adult to me!

After Kai's swimming lessons were completed, we went to McDonald's for dinner to celebrate. Even though he didn't pass, he still learned so much. He is so comfortable in the water and I'm very proud of him. While at McDonalds, I just kept thinking that Gary and I are adults celebrating our childs success in swimming. I always feel like I'm 19 and acting like a mom. Does that make sense?

Ok, I don't want to admit this but one of the problems with my thyroid is that it has made me a `little' more irritable and emotional. This is evident in Kai sponging up what I've said and this week he has said, `What the frick?' `How does this freakin thing work?' and to Gary, `Mom would be so pissed!'. Wow. From now on, I'm not saying that anymore. If Kai catches me saying anything like that, he is allowed to tell me that I'm being bad:) I'm just waiting for Kai to say that to my mother in law....oh boy:)

Koen is my super baby now! He sleeps 12 hours at night (straight!!!) and has a 2 hour morning nap and a 1 hour afternoon nap. It took him 8 months but now it's soooo awesome. I love his predicitability. I'm sure once the teeth come, I'll be in trouble, but for now, so great! He loves eating anything and everything. I have no idea how he does it without teeth but I love that he can feed himself everything. We just fill his tray with chuncks of pear, peach, bread, chicken, noodles etc. and he eats it all up!







Friday, September 18, 2009

Future Buddies

Today Ali and Caden came by. Caden is 6 months younger than Koen so one day they will be buddies! Here's Caden's chubby cheeks next to Koen's skinny head:)

And...Koen trying to get his hands on Caden

And some pictures of Caden...

Will post more stuff tomorrow.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Swimming and Clothes

Health: back to the doctor tomorrow. I did walk 3km today though...go me! I've been eating a lot more so I only lost 0.5 lbs last night. I feel so tired and I'm really sick of this. I want to play football! I think Gary can't wait for me to get better either because we've had leftovers all week.

(Koen looks so much like my baby pictures, I love it!!)
Kai: I'm really liking preschool and he is too:) We have to make a photo page together for his class photo album so I'm looking forward to that. He's also in swimming lessons right now. He's doing okay but boy, did I have to give him a talking to about listening. He kept wandering off trying to find toys. Today when they were supposed to hold onto Styrofoam floats and put their face in the water, he just kept walking up to the other boys and smashing his float into theirs. He loves being rough. The poor teacher has to say his name so many times during a class. I really hope this is just a stage because I don't want him to be disruptive or disrespectful in class. I think it's because I'm a teacher that I'm so paranoid about this. I do have to say that he is very good one on one.

(These guys are starting to play together a little more although they have to be closely monitored)
Koen: He has slept through the night 5 of the last 7 nights. He has also had 2 longer naps each day. Yippee!!! He is such a happy boy and loves any food we put in front of him. Today he had tuna casserole and kiwi. He giggles about almost anything and is such a sweet little boy. He has discovered the toilet and Kai is very good about making sure Koen doesn't do bad things:)

(Isn't Koen such a cute little goofball? Kai likes to crawl and have Koen follow him)
Craigslist: I was looking for size 4 clothes for Kai and found someone selling 200+ pieces of clothes sizes 4-7. I went and checked it out and bought it. Wowsers. Everything was GAP, Nike, Children's Place, Old Navy etc., great quality stuff. Some things had only been worn once, some still had tags. Awesome condition. Columbia winter jackets, Nike runners, etc. I'd say it was at least $2000.00 worth of clothes and I got it for $250.00. I have been busy washing and organizing clothes all day. There are actually too many clothes so I am selling some items:) I've got more than enough clothes for Kai for the next three years! I love that Koen gets to wear the clothes too, it makes it feel so much more worthwhile.

(These boys love wrestling with daddyo!)
All right, I've got some wedding pictures to edit. Better get on it. If I said something that didn't make sense, please excuse it. The meds make me confused and a little slow:) Bon nuit!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009


I have an unopened bottle of BioGaia drops. It is valued at $30 and expires in January. Does anyone need it? Probiotics for the digestive system. Koen just went through one bottle and so I have one left over....

Monday, September 14, 2009


Basically, I'm not any better yet. I went to my family doctor today and he tripled my dose of beta-blockers. He just said it might make me a little slower mentally and I'd say he's right:) I'm going to see him again on Thursday so he can see if it's working. The dose I was on did nothing. The lowest my heart rate has been was 99bpm. My hand shaking has also gotten a lot worse. I think it feels like I just had 15 coffees or something. Okay, onto other things....

Koen LOVES bath time and can now stand for long periods of time by himself. Here are some pictures of my cute little boy...

The picture below shows how cooperative the boys are at having their pictures taken with me. I'm posting this picture so you can see that my face is skinnier. Unfortunately, I will continue to lose weight. I say `unfortunately' because I don't want to, I feel very comfortable where I am. If I lose more, I will just end up gaining it later. I seriously eat about 6 meals a day.

Every night when I go to kiss Kai goodnight, I say a quick prayer that these boys will really love eachother. It's been hard seeing Kai be rough with Koen or say that he doesn't love him. Last week they were wrestling and Koen's hand ended up in Kai's mouth and Kai bit him. Kai has never bitten anyone EVER. I think I cried more than Koen. Kai was punished quite severely and I think he felt very bad. THe other day they did play nicely for about 5 minutes. They were playing doctor's office and Kai was Dr. Sudds and Koen was Dr. Suess (kinda funny hey?). Kai was getting mad at Koen for crawling out of the `office' (bunch of chairs in a circle) but they did giggle a lot together which was cute.

I get to cuddle with Kai for maybe 1 minute each day. He is not a cuddler. Here I am telling him a story about Lightning McQueen. This guy LOVES stories.

My view all day long...Koen wanting to be picked up. If I'm not around, he plays nicely. When he sees me, he starts whining.

Koen is wild and loves to be upside down and bounced around. I think I have myself two very active boys. And big eaters. Kai had 4 waffles for lunch today while his girl cousins each had one. Koen loves most food we give him and enjoyed a bunch of perogies for dinner tonight. He has started clapping a lot, it is very cute. He holds one hand stationary and brings the other hand to it.

Finally, Kai started swimming lessons today. Unfortunately we were a few minutes late getting there so he was a little frazzled and spent the first 5 minutes trying to get out of the pool. After that though, he did wonderfully!!! There are 3 other boys in the class which is perfect. He wasn't the best listener and when I asked him about it later he said he was and that, `Christy (his teacher) didn't have to count to three!'. I like that his teacher was a little more strict with him though. He put his ear and mouth in the water and did well with the splashing and jumping. He is so pumped to be going back tomorrow. I looked like such a dorky parent, I had a big smile on my face and didn't take my eyes off of him. He is def. the stockiest boy in the class.:)

Okay, off to bed with a bunch of meds. Hoping and praying that things get a bit better tomorrow!

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Post Partum Hyperthyroidism

So, that's what I have (you got it Dana!). Apparently it affects 5-10% of women three to eight months after delivery. The symptoms I have are; muscle weakness, trembling, fatigue, insomnia, tachycardia (rapid heart rate), loss of period, hair loss, feeling warm (but not having a fever) and weight loss. The symptoms really come across as a flu + anxiety. I wonder how many women go undiagnosed. It may last several weeks up to a year (and another source said permanent?!). Oh ya, another very strange symptom that I forgot to tell the doctor about, was that whenever I scratch my skin, I get a hickey like mark. Not that I know what a hickey looks like:)

I was given a beta blocker (propanolol) and took my max dose today even though the doctor recommended taking just one to start. Taking one pill reduced my heart rate from 120 to about 100 while resting. The pill's effects kick in after an hour and lasts for about one hour. It is safe to take while breastfeeding but still, some of it will travel through the breastmilk slowing Koen down...whatever that means.

In order to really treat hyperthyroidism, I need to take a stronger medication that I am not allowed to use while breastfeeding. The doctor was awesome though, he took so much time with me and validated all my concerns. He asked how much longer I wanted to breastfeed and my goal was to do it until Koen was 10 months old. I am very hesitant to stop breastfeeding because of his issue with formula (vomiting for hours the 3 times I gave it to him) and it's prob. too early for homo milk (and what if he's allergic to it?). I cannot live my life like this so if I have to, I somehow have to wean Koen. We'll have to see how this medication does for now. I am very upset about this. I hope my little boy will adjust well to formula or whole milk. Again, very sad for me.

Finally, I let the doctor know that I am an active person and I wondered when I could be active again. He said that I need to start off walking and see how that goes. He made it sound like I wouldn't even be jogging for a month:( I am VERY upset about this. Football is so important to me and I've only played one game this season. Right now, I seriously need to just lay on the couch and it's so hard to even be a good mom like this. It takes me about 20 minutes to recover from taking Koen upstairs to bed. If I walk too fast, or go up the stairs too quickly, my heart rate increases immediately and I feel like my heart is going to burst. I really, really love football. It is my highlight of the week. I am so sad about this too.

Fortunately I got the beta-blocker before doing the wedding shoot so although it was exhausting, I did okay. Hope tomorrow is a better day. I really need your prayers. I need this hyperthyroidism to disappear or I need to find a treatment that will be successful enough for me to return to my normal way of life. Appreciate your health folks. Seriously.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Health Update

So, I went to emergency last night because of my increased heart rate and shortness of breath. I hemmed and hawed about going but after realizing there was no way I could sleep with my heart pounding away, I went. I left after 1.5 hours because there was still another hour wait and I was finally tired enough that I could sleep (midnight). This morning I saw the doctor and was sent for 7 different blood tests and and ECG. He was wonderful because he totally validated the seriousness of it. I hope they can figure out what is wrong with me. Several people have suggested anxiety. I know this is not it. I have had anxiety before and it was so different. My resting heart rate hasn't dipped below 115 since I started monitoring it 24 hours ago. I can't even walk a block without being completely out of breath. My blood pressure (normally about 100/60) is also elevated to about 140/80. I may have had a little breakdown this morning in the van. Kai and Koen couldn't have cared less.

I'm nervous because we have a wedding shoot tomorrow. They are physically and mentally demanding when I'm 100% healthy so this should be quite difficult. I'm going to really take it easy and make Gary do most of the formal stuff.

I can't wait to be better. I really believe that what I have is not contagious so I'm not worried about infecting my family anymore which is a huge relief, they all seem healthy.

Finally, Koen has slept through the night (8pm-7am) for the past 3 nights. This has been wonderful timing as I'm quite a disaster. So happy about that. Seriously, I am very thankful.

If you are the praying type, please pray that they can find out what is wrong with me so that we can start treating it ASAP. I feel so bad for my heart and body that it has to have this strain on it.

Finally, the one benefit of this is that I can eat whatever I want. I am hungry 24/7 so the other day I literally ate half of that cake I made. I eat in bed at 3am. Gary is currently on a McDonald's run. We only eat there once every 3 months or so and I'm looking forward to it:) So bad but I might as well take advantage of this insane metabolic rate....

Thursday, September 10, 2009


Today Kai had his first day of preschool. He enjoyed it and I feel quite neutral about it. Unfortunately it's in the afternoon so he had to wait all day for it:) It wasn't really a big deal for him because he's been to two different daycares and he goes to Sunday School every Sunday so he is very fine with going anywhere. I left after just a couple minutes and walked with Koen around the neighbourhood for an hour, trying to get him to sleep. No luck. I did not take a million pictures of him there, was I supposed to? I took a few before we left....
I don't know if it is the teacher in me, but boy, I have a lot of expectations of the preschool and the teachers. I really want Kai to be challenged and I'm not just sending him there to play, that's for sure:) $100.00 a month is a lot of money, could it be better spent signing him up for various classes? We'll see how it goes! I know how parents feel when they have kids in my class...they want their child to be known and loved. I feel the same way.

This was Kai yesterday afternoon. He was watching some TV in the office and all of a sudden it was quiet and I found him fast asleep. This is the first time in his life he has fallen asleep like this. I'm worried that afternoon preschool is going to wear him out.

Kai made a `cage' of chairs for Koen. It didn't contain him for very long.
Finally, I am 90% positive that I have hyperthyroidism. I just thought it was the flu but Gary said he had had a friend with it and I seem to be acting very similarly. I looked up the symptoms and I have every single one. I don't usually jump to conclusions (and I'm sure doctors hate self diagnosers) like this but the symptoms are so random, it has to be it. I've never felt like this in my life and I know it's something other than the flu. Unfortunately all the clinics are closed so I will have to go tomorrow morning...with the kids.

Common symptoms and signs of hyperthyroidism

  • Palpitations
  • Heat intolerance
  • Nervousness
  • Insomnia
  • Breathlessness
  • Increased bowel movements
  • Light or absent menstrual periods
  • Fatigue
  • Fast heart rate
  • Trembling hands
  • Weight loss
  • Muscle weakness
  • Warm moist skin
  • Hair loss
  • Staring gaze
I have continued to lose one pound per day and I'm still eating normally. I am currently at the weight that I was when we got married. Crazy. That's the only good thing about this crazy thing I'm going through. I want to be better!
Okay, time to lay on the couch for the rest of the evening.