Tuesday, November 16, 2010

I Want My Mom

Sometimes it just really sucks. Sometimes I think about it and it's so surreal that she's been gone for 4.5 years. Sometimes it makes me mad. Sometimes I wish she was here to cheer me on through life. Sometimes I wish she was here to watch the kids for me. Sometimes I wish she was here so I could see her play with my kids. Sometimes I imagine what it would be like if she still lived across the street. Sometimes I just want to tell her what she's missed in my life. Mom, did you know that we finished our basement? Did you know your house is no longer there? There are 6 houses in it's place and the people there don't understand the unspoken rule about parking in front of their own house (they park in front of ours). I'm a photographer, I'm not teaching anymore! I have Graves' Disease but I'm getting better. I have two beautiful boys that talk about oma in heaven but will only know you by my words. We are adopting a baby, can you believe it? I miss my number one fan and supporter. I want my mom.

6 comments:

  1. Sucky deal I say!

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  2. I can't imagine how hard it must be to have your Mom no longer with you. I can't even think of the right words for you. Sucky deal indeed!

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  3. I am right there with you Louise. It totally isn't fair. I continue to waver between being mad and sad with periods where I feel like I have dealt with those feelings and am moving on. I know it isn't fair and it sucks. BUT, it really makes me realize how temporal life is and that our true blessings will come when we are ushered into Heaven alongside our beloved Moms. Our moms both taught us to keep our hearts fixated on our Saviour and for that I feel so thankful. You are an inspiration to me in everything that you are dealing with and I am thankful to have you as a "blog buddy". I am sure your mom was so proud of the woman you became and that she would have been rejoicing with all that you have accomplished in the last few years. I often wish I had just 10 minutes with my mom to tell her how I felt about her and how much she is missed, as well as all the new stuff going on. You are not alone!

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  4. No one can "cheer you on" like your own mother, but hopefully your friends and sisters can help fill the void you feel.

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  5. it sucks!!! And it's not fair.

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  6. It does suck! Thinking about you:)

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