Monday, June 29, 2009

Phew

Okay, so this will be a random post but here we go.

Fitness Journey:
I am still eating healthy and exercising regularly (yay for family jogs!) but am taking a break from trying to lose any weight. I am expending too many calories right now exercising and breastfeeding so I just can't afford to lose any more weight right now. Once I'm done breastfeeding (I'm assuming in about 4 more months), I will work hard to lose the last 7.5lbs. Overall, I am very happy with my 12.5 lb weight loss in 10 weeks. I exceeded my goal by 2.5 lbs! I am back on my prenatal vitamins so hopefully that helps with energy levels.



Koen:
I don't want to jinx it but he has slept through the night 3 of the last 5 nights. It's about time if you ask me:) He has started to love eating a lot more and Gary steamed a ton of sweet potatoes today for him so we'll have to try that tomorrow. Koen is still a very bad sleeper (usually sleeps about 2 X 45 minutes per day) but I have to say that he is so happy-go-lucky that I don't mind having him awake. He has a difficult time going down to sleep at night and usually he will fall asleep around 9pm. I feel a big bump on his upper gums but no sign of a tooth yet...I know how long this process can take! He can go from sitting to laying on his tummy to going on all fours and rocking. He is a very active little fellow. I LOVE this stage as he can sit and squeal and play with his toys!



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(By the way, the reason I asked who his favourite auntie was is because he told me earlier that he wishes auntie Maria was his mom because she has such a cool van).

Kai:
Has been busy playing with cousins and friends over the past few days. He is learning a difficult lesson about sharing his toys with his brother. He is still most fascinated with trucks, trains, and cars. His favourite foods are carrot sticks, grapes, and watermelon. He wants a car themed birthday so that should be easy to do. Last year was really low key as we just took him to the zoo. This year we'll probably have a party because he LOVES playing with all his little buddies.


Gary:
He is enjoying being home but I think he is slowly realising summer holidays aren't really a holiday because its busy with the kids from 7am-9pm each night. We did enjoy a lovely family jog yesterday morning, hopefully many more to come. Gary plans on doing a lot of professional development in the photography this summer and has already gotten started on it. It is very interesting having a photography business together. It works VERY well 95% of the time, but the other 5%, we def. argue in editing over what makes a photo a good one or not:)



Nerds:

(Eva and Micah love the little babies, which is a good thing, because they are expecting a little brother or sister in a couple of months!).


Been hanging out with our nerd friends and for a recap of who these people are, check out Melissa's blog. This has been really fun for all of us as we all have people to connect with.



(Some of the mini nerds, we're missing 5 other kids in this picture and a few more are on the way)

Teaching: next year I'm teaching Chemistry 11 (instead of Biology 11) and Science 9. I've never taught Chem 11 before, so, this summer I'm going through the whole course so I'll hopefully be an expert by the time I return!

Weddings:
Had our first wedding of the summer and it went really well. It's been tiring editing 1500+ pictures the past few days but I'm the kind of person who likes to work hard and get it done sooner than later...especially with another wedding this Saturday we don't want to get behind.



(This picture just shows how massive the wedding party was! Hopefully I'll have some pictures posted by Wednesday on our GC Photography site.)


Life:
I'm doing very well but feel a little fragile. Like, if I hear one more piece of bad news, I might lose it. I don't even know what `losing it' would look like. Not sure, just a feeling. Maybe I would take it really well. I don't know, we'll see! But seriously, I'm totally fine. I could also delve into my thoughts a lot more...thoughts like...one of the reasons I might not want to have another baby is because with the genes I have, I could get cancer and be dead in 5 years. I would've spent the last five years of my life being pregnant and breastfeeding (which isn't a bad thing) instead of getting out, experiencing life and getting onto the next stage in life with my family. Does this sound extreme? Does this sound crazy? Maybe to you, but to me, things like cancer do not surprise me anymore. I know any of us could die at any time but unfortunately, the rain has come down on my parade over the past 5 years and I think I'm just realistic. I'm totally not depressed or pessimistic. I do love my life and my family and pray that I will have a long, happy life with my family here on Earth. I totally trust God and His plan for our lives and would say I'm not worried, I just have to learn to not think about `what could be'.

3 comments:

  1. I think that's totally normal. Your perspective changes when you go through what you did with your mom. Some of us feel invincible like we'll never get cancer, but for you that's part of your reality cause you've already had to deal with it.
    And Wow! That is one stinking big wedding party!

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  2. would love to see more videos!
    You are so lucky to have such great boys, so much fun

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  3. Love the pics of the Nerdo kiddos. Can't wait to add a few of our own!

    Cancer SUCKS. It's just so terrible when it affects a family, especially more than once. I can totally see why you have the thoughts you do. I have thoughts like that every so often, having had cancer already once and knowing my risk of breast cancer is significantly higher because of the treatment I received (I was just reading about this recently in my midwifery textbook. Yikes!) But for me I know I must keep these thoughts in check and not let fear take over. I remind myself that my hope is in the Lord, NOT in our knowledge or the world's knowledge of risk and disease and even things that are supposed to keep us healthy. I say this because I have struggled with this. Thanks for being honest about what this is like for you.

    I am praying for you and your family.

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