Thursday, September 13, 2007

My number one fan

I just want to say that I miss my mom. She loved me more than anyone else and was my biggest supporter and encourager (and I'm sure my sisters would say the same for themselves). We all had amazing relationships with mom and we've sort of filled in that role for eachother, but, it will never come close to how much mom cared for us. It's hard when your number one fan is no longer around. It's hard because I know she would love Kai as much as I do. I am not as sad about it anymore, I just feel a little bit empty and I think I always will. I see life differently now. Life isn't as wonderfu/perfectl as I once thought it was (like when I was 20 and everything was just so fun!) and I'm not really surprised anymore when bad/sad things happen. Please don't think I'm a `half empty' or `poor me' type person, or that I'm depressed, I just think I'm realistic.


  1. I couldn't have said it better myself. You are not alone in your feelings on this one. Time doesn't ever make the emptiness disappear and happy occasions are never quite as happy. I miss the carefree days of not knowing anything bad in my life as well. I miss my mom...and I also miss dreaming of having only healthy children. Life has certainly taken a turn that I never dreamed it would. I will keep praying for you and your family!

  2. xoxoxoxo
    It sure would be tough to lose your number one fan...I know I`d be devastated to lose mine.