So, over the past 2 months, since I have been quite sick with my hyperthyroidism, I have been contemplating whether or not I could return to work. I finally made a decision two days ago. I don't think you know how much I went back and forth and it was honestly the hardest decision I've ever made. Many nights where I didn't sleep well at all. It consumed my thoughts. Gary didn't want to talk to me anymore because it's all I talked about. There is no way I could return. I mean, I guess I could teach, but then Gary and the boys would get nothing from me but an extremely irritable, exhausted wife and mother. I have a feeling my condition would also get worse from the stress of getting the kids to daycare and running around at work all day. Teaching is awesome but it is exhausting. It's like a fetus, taking all of the nutrients from your body, leaving you exhausted:) You love the fetus, but still, exhausted.
This was such a hard decision for me. I love my job. I love where I work(ed). I love teenagers. I love science. I love getting out of the house without the kids. I didn't want to let the school/staff down. But, if I have learned anything over the years, it's that my kids are only little once and being a wonderful wife and mom is my priority (well, along with my health).
When I told my boss I wasn't coming back, I had a mini panic attack. For real, chest pains and everything. I have never not brought in an income. Well, I guess when I went to Kenya, but then I didn't have kids to provide for or a mortgage to take care of. Because I have the ability to bring in some money via photography, we should be okay. Well, as long as there isn't another van incident (sidenote: we had to bring it in AGAIN but it was a wire that had come loose when they were replacing the transmission and they fixed it for free)! I also feel the need to do photography because it keeps me busy and it's something I can do with my `condition' (one hour shoot and then sit on my butt in front of the computer). I am so thankful for this. Usually Gary and I do shoots together, because it's easier and a whole lot more fun, but we have done some by ourselves. I will try to do more on my own because Gary is busy enough with a full time job and coaching basketball.
So, the kids will have me around all the time. I'm worried about this in a way because it's really tiring for me to go out with them, but at the same time, I go a little crazy staying at home all the time. Socializing is absolutely exhuasting. I think going for walks, with them in the stroller, will be good. Maybe getting out at night by myself will also be good. Kai being in preschool 2X per week is very good for me, especially because he doesn't nap anymore. I use that time to work on photos, and he is having a wonderful time learning and expending all of his energy.
I was in the church nursery a few weeks back, and just being in there for 2 hours destroyed me for the entire day. I want to be normal so bad. I hope this is not my new normal. Went for blood tests again today, I appreciate my doctors monitoring me so closely. I know it could be so much worse so I'm not feeling too sorry for myself:) Today was a bad day. My heart rate was up again and I've kind of felt like passing out. I can totally function though so that's good. I had a good Sunday, so I went for a 6 minute run, and then my heart rate was at 200bpm. No running for me.
I don't plan on being a full time stay at home mom forever (not that there's anything wrong with it!). I just feel that it is very right for me at this time. You never know what's ahead, whether it's good or bad, but I do know who's in control. Not me! Ms. Contorl Freak has had to let go of the control. I'm very thankful for everything in my life, well, besides my thyroid, it's kind of um, driving me nuts. My prayer is to get my health back and I can't wait for the day when I can look back and say `Wow, I never thought I would get out of it but I'm so happy I'm better now!'. One day. One day.
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Tuesday, November 03, 2009
Monday, November 02, 2009
10 Months Old
My baby is 10 months old! He is so full of energy and loves exploring. He is pretty much an energizer bunny, just go, go, go all the time. He loves clapping and playing everything like a drum. It makes meal time nice and messy!
(The high pitched squeal)
At this age, Kai was laid back and observant. Koen is easy going and VERY hands on. He doesn't want to just watch something, he needs to MOVE. He needs to go to everything, touch it, manipulate it. When he sees something exciting, he just starts clapping away. Sometimes when he's crying, he'll clap too:)
He loves `Blue', his blankie/doggy. He'll sit in his crib for half an hour just sucking on Blue's ear. As soon as he's sure I'll pick him up, then he will release `Blue'. It is def. similar to Kai's relationship with Bubi and I think we need to find another `Blue'!
He is still working on his first teeth and just sucks on his hand a lot, or just makes sucking motions. He has started sticking his tongue out now and doesn't appear as tongue tied. He has started to climb up on things and can squat to pick up a toy (while not holding on to anything!).
He now sleeps from 6:30pm to 7:30am due to the time change.
He was H1N1 vaccinated today and just cried for a a few seconds. My brave boy. He is also 22 lbs but not very tall. He is so easily consoled, just pick him up and he's a happy little boy.
We are so thankful for our little guy. He has brought us so much joy and happiness. He makes us smile inside and out. Love you bubba!
Saturday, October 31, 2009
My Little Pumpkin and Bear
Tonight we took the kids trick or treating for an hour. Kai was LOVING it. After each house he proclaimed, `Trick or treating is so fun!'. He was def. ready to head home after going up and down so many stairs. We ended up handing out half of his candy because there's no way I'm letting him eat all that junk:)
(Kai trying to get the picture over with so we could head out)
Kai really wanted to be a butterfly but I kind of convinced him to wear a costume that we already had. I would've made him one but he was adamant that it had to be pink. I guess I could've done it but ya, a pink butterfly?
Our neighbourhood is crazy over Halloween. Some families spend over $100.00 on decorations! With our little scarecrow and pumpkin out, Kai asked when we were going to decorate. Um ya, that's enough decorating for me!
(Rar! I'm going to get you...if I figure out how to move in this thing!)
(He had just seen himself in the mirror)
The next pictures are from Kai's party day at school. They asked the students what they were thankful for and Kai raised his hand and said `Going to gramma's house'. I think this made gramma (Gary's mom) very happy as she had come along.
After singing all their songs, Kai said loudly (several times), `We didn't sing the car song!'.
He did a great job again and I'm impressed that he does the actions and sings along. He is not a great lover of anything artsy...he is a great lover of cars. And that's it. Cars. Kai is now 39.2lbs. He gained a pound in about a month, I can tell that he is def. growing up and out:)
This morning, I had to set my alarm (which I NEVER do since Koen is my alarm) to get up for football. Had to be in Vancouver by 8am. We won our first game of the day and then I came home to take the kids to the pumpkin patch. It was a beautiful day out, maybe one of the last good fall days? I decided today that fall is my favourite season. The leaves are just so amazing and everywhere I drove today looked spectacular. We were only there for about 10 minutes since it was so windy, and Kai spent 99% of that time splashing in mud puddles, so we didn't really get any good pictures (and they were both wearing terrible clothes for pictures) but at least we went!
When I came home from football, Kai said `Mommy, I missed you! I'm so happy to see you!'. I told him that I got hit in the head today and explained that it was an accident and that the girl said sorry. Kai said, `Did she give you a kiss better too?'. Uh, no. We only kiss our family kiddo.
On the way to the patch, Kai was being so sweet. He started saying,`Mommy, you are my favourite..favourite..um (he didn't want to say friend because Ani is his best friend), you are the best adult in the whole wide world!'. I'll take it!
(isn't he cute?)
Had another football game in the afternoon. We were down to just 5 players (normally 7 on the field at a time) so it a tiring game but a fun one. Obviously we lost but ya, fun to play the last game of the season! I am so thankful that today was a good healthy day, I was able to play both games the whole time! Yippee!!
(Kai trying to get the picture over with so we could head out)
Kai really wanted to be a butterfly but I kind of convinced him to wear a costume that we already had. I would've made him one but he was adamant that it had to be pink. I guess I could've done it but ya, a pink butterfly?
Our neighbourhood is crazy over Halloween. Some families spend over $100.00 on decorations! With our little scarecrow and pumpkin out, Kai asked when we were going to decorate. Um ya, that's enough decorating for me!
(Rar! I'm going to get you...if I figure out how to move in this thing!)
(He had just seen himself in the mirror)
The next pictures are from Kai's party day at school. They asked the students what they were thankful for and Kai raised his hand and said `Going to gramma's house'. I think this made gramma (Gary's mom) very happy as she had come along.
After singing all their songs, Kai said loudly (several times), `We didn't sing the car song!'.
He did a great job again and I'm impressed that he does the actions and sings along. He is not a great lover of anything artsy...he is a great lover of cars. And that's it. Cars. Kai is now 39.2lbs. He gained a pound in about a month, I can tell that he is def. growing up and out:)
This morning, I had to set my alarm (which I NEVER do since Koen is my alarm) to get up for football. Had to be in Vancouver by 8am. We won our first game of the day and then I came home to take the kids to the pumpkin patch. It was a beautiful day out, maybe one of the last good fall days? I decided today that fall is my favourite season. The leaves are just so amazing and everywhere I drove today looked spectacular. We were only there for about 10 minutes since it was so windy, and Kai spent 99% of that time splashing in mud puddles, so we didn't really get any good pictures (and they were both wearing terrible clothes for pictures) but at least we went!
When I came home from football, Kai said `Mommy, I missed you! I'm so happy to see you!'. I told him that I got hit in the head today and explained that it was an accident and that the girl said sorry. Kai said, `Did she give you a kiss better too?'. Uh, no. We only kiss our family kiddo.
On the way to the patch, Kai was being so sweet. He started saying,`Mommy, you are my favourite..favourite..um (he didn't want to say friend because Ani is his best friend), you are the best adult in the whole wide world!'. I'll take it!
(isn't he cute?)
Had another football game in the afternoon. We were down to just 5 players (normally 7 on the field at a time) so it a tiring game but a fun one. Obviously we lost but ya, fun to play the last game of the season! I am so thankful that today was a good healthy day, I was able to play both games the whole time! Yippee!!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Honeymoon, Take Two!
I'm so excited. I booked a trip for our 5 year anniversary which is May 28th. It's a ways away BUT there was a deal on travelbestbets.ca so we did it! We are going back to where we went for our first little honeymoon, The Kingfisher. This will be our first time away from the kids and we are going for 3 nights! They have some of the best food we've ever had there and awesome massages. It was a little pricey but is totally worth it...I have such a hard time spending money so I'm trying to relax on that a little more. Did I mention that fixing our van ended up costing $5440????!!!! Okay, won't mention it again. Maybe you're not supposed to talk about money on blogs. Oops. We'll be going a couple months before our anniversary when we have time off for Spring Break. Yippee!
(Kai wanted a mohowk for picture day so we tried it out)
Kai has his party day tomorrow, in his pumpkin costume! Should be adorable.
Koen is a bit of a grumpus but I would be too. Teething can't be fun.
(Both boys have Gary's eyes)
I feel about 75% today. In the back of my head, I have this fear that it is Graves Disease (80% of all cases of hyperthyroidism are Graves). The reason I don't want it to be Graves is because it is lifelong. My weight has been very consistent. My newest symptom is itchy palms. So annoying. I seem to have levelled off at 10lbs lower than when I started. I've really been craving veggies, I had three bowls of salad for lunch!
(I'm trying to get Kai interested in writing his name and this is what he does with the crayons)
And, in regards to vaccinations, I have finally come to a decision. Due to the fact that Gary and I are teachers, Kai is in preschool, and both kids will be in daycare, we are all getting vaccinated. It took me a long time to come to this decision but am finally comfortable with it.
The cheap baby gate option and teething bar? He's just looking longingly upstairs where Kai has run away from him. You should've seen Gary wrestling with the boys tonight. What almost 10 month old knows how to wrestle? This one apparently! Koen is a very wild and adventurous boy, he is going to keep me very busy!
Bon nuit.
(Kai wanted a mohowk for picture day so we tried it out)
Kai has his party day tomorrow, in his pumpkin costume! Should be adorable.
Koen is a bit of a grumpus but I would be too. Teething can't be fun.
(Both boys have Gary's eyes)
I feel about 75% today. In the back of my head, I have this fear that it is Graves Disease (80% of all cases of hyperthyroidism are Graves). The reason I don't want it to be Graves is because it is lifelong. My weight has been very consistent. My newest symptom is itchy palms. So annoying. I seem to have levelled off at 10lbs lower than when I started. I've really been craving veggies, I had three bowls of salad for lunch!
(I'm trying to get Kai interested in writing his name and this is what he does with the crayons)
And, in regards to vaccinations, I have finally come to a decision. Due to the fact that Gary and I are teachers, Kai is in preschool, and both kids will be in daycare, we are all getting vaccinated. It took me a long time to come to this decision but am finally comfortable with it.
The cheap baby gate option and teething bar? He's just looking longingly upstairs where Kai has run away from him. You should've seen Gary wrestling with the boys tonight. What almost 10 month old knows how to wrestle? This one apparently! Koen is a very wild and adventurous boy, he is going to keep me very busy!
Bon nuit.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Roller Coaster
Today was my favouritist (pretend it's a word) weather of all...a beautiful, windy, sunny, fall day. I wish the weather was like this every day of the year!
I was doing so well last week that I thought I was all better. Nope. There are still bad days. I don't know if there's anything I can do to control it, I think it just happens. I just need to make sure I stay with my regular does of medicine, regardless of how I feel.
(We took pictures at the fall carnival at our church this year...they didn't turn out the best but oh well, it was fun to do. It was a western theme, hence, the plaid.).
I think I fluctuate from about 65%-85% health. I honestly forget what it's like to be 100% but I really hope and pray that I will be back there one day. I used to be sad that I couldn't run anymore and I don't really think about it now because it seems like an impossible feat. I can't imagine myself being at 100% ever again. Oh well, enough of the `woe is me' attitude:) If you saw me, you would think I was normal, but, pretending to be normal takes it's toll on me. I'm a bit of a disaster inside. Appreciate your thryoid, people!
Koen is getting his first tooth and he's having a rough go of it. Fever, irritability, chewing on his hand etc. It's still about a week away from popping up but it's coming! Poor little guy. It seems to get worse from 4pm onwards. He is a walking machine. He generally walks instead of crawling now. Often he will walk along the wall but he can take 10+ steps on his own! It's so strange to see my baby walking. I guess that means he's a toddler now?!
Kai is really growing up these days. He's growing out of his size 3 clothes and is a lot more rational. He is having fewer meltdowns and he always seems to be throwing out lines to me about knowing the rules and showing good behaviour etc. He says he wants to be a daddy when he's older, but, he doesn't want any kids. He wants to be a daddy because daddy's fix things:)
Looking back, this is such a boring post but too bad, it's all I've got:) Bon nuit.
I was doing so well last week that I thought I was all better. Nope. There are still bad days. I don't know if there's anything I can do to control it, I think it just happens. I just need to make sure I stay with my regular does of medicine, regardless of how I feel.
(We took pictures at the fall carnival at our church this year...they didn't turn out the best but oh well, it was fun to do. It was a western theme, hence, the plaid.).
I think I fluctuate from about 65%-85% health. I honestly forget what it's like to be 100% but I really hope and pray that I will be back there one day. I used to be sad that I couldn't run anymore and I don't really think about it now because it seems like an impossible feat. I can't imagine myself being at 100% ever again. Oh well, enough of the `woe is me' attitude:) If you saw me, you would think I was normal, but, pretending to be normal takes it's toll on me. I'm a bit of a disaster inside. Appreciate your thryoid, people!
Koen is getting his first tooth and he's having a rough go of it. Fever, irritability, chewing on his hand etc. It's still about a week away from popping up but it's coming! Poor little guy. It seems to get worse from 4pm onwards. He is a walking machine. He generally walks instead of crawling now. Often he will walk along the wall but he can take 10+ steps on his own! It's so strange to see my baby walking. I guess that means he's a toddler now?!
Kai is really growing up these days. He's growing out of his size 3 clothes and is a lot more rational. He is having fewer meltdowns and he always seems to be throwing out lines to me about knowing the rules and showing good behaviour etc. He says he wants to be a daddy when he's older, but, he doesn't want any kids. He wants to be a daddy because daddy's fix things:)
Looking back, this is such a boring post but too bad, it's all I've got:) Bon nuit.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Pure Joy
Today we went to the park, along with Kai's loader and dump truck, in our fabulous stroller which I LOVE. Love the double jogger. We use it almost every single day. Whenever it stops raining, we head out as soon as we can.
(You might be asking, `Why isn't Kai walking?'. Sometimes he does but that usually means he wants to push the stroller which means that he is pushing Koen into everyone's fences etc. If I want some exercise and low stress, I push the stroller:)
What could be making Kai so happy?
What is he finding so fun?
Being allowed to push his brother around and not get in trouble for it!
In this case, Koen loves being pushed around by his big brother. Check out the grin!
This guy is one happy camper.
He is just so happy with life. Imagine if we all found every single thing we did in life so fun? Oh wow! A dishwasher! I wonder what happens when I move this tray in and out? So cool! Woweee! Stairs! Kai's room is up there, it's fun! I'm going to go! It's what he does all day long. He approaches everything with a giggle and smile.
Kai does not approach everything with a smile:) His vocabulary, inquiries, and knowledge shock me. Today he said, `Mommy, isn't this impressive?'. Impressive? He is learning a lot at preschool and things I wouldn't think to teach (like green=blue + yellow which they made with paint today). He asked today how God takes us to heaven when we die...try to explain that one! He is VERY passionate about cars. I wish I knew more so that I could teach him more parts etc. I am actually hoping he starts thinking about other things because it's almost all he talks about:) Random tidbit: Kai says `Lellow' for yellow.
Kai is reminding me more and more of a mini Gary.
Koen chilling in the stroller with his leg up on the bar.
I told Kai he could not go upstairs to bed when he got home from preschool. While making dinner, I noticed that he was a little quiet....
Finally, we had some SUPER DUPER YUMMY Falafel's for dinner. I made them from our Moosewood Cookbook (vegetarian). I'm trying to eat a lot more vegetarian meals. The boys both loved the falafel's. It is a perfect way for Koen to get lots of protein. Soooooo easy to make. Yum. Yum.
*health update: so, um, ya. Had to go back on a minimal dose of beta blockers as my body fluctuates. So hard to know if its the meds making me better or my thyroid doing it on its own. My meds change daily. I still feel fabulous. Taking kids to the park + making a yummy dinner= Louise is back!*
(You might be asking, `Why isn't Kai walking?'. Sometimes he does but that usually means he wants to push the stroller which means that he is pushing Koen into everyone's fences etc. If I want some exercise and low stress, I push the stroller:)
What could be making Kai so happy?
What is he finding so fun?
Being allowed to push his brother around and not get in trouble for it!
In this case, Koen loves being pushed around by his big brother. Check out the grin!
This guy is one happy camper.
He is just so happy with life. Imagine if we all found every single thing we did in life so fun? Oh wow! A dishwasher! I wonder what happens when I move this tray in and out? So cool! Woweee! Stairs! Kai's room is up there, it's fun! I'm going to go! It's what he does all day long. He approaches everything with a giggle and smile.
Kai does not approach everything with a smile:) His vocabulary, inquiries, and knowledge shock me. Today he said, `Mommy, isn't this impressive?'. Impressive? He is learning a lot at preschool and things I wouldn't think to teach (like green=blue + yellow which they made with paint today). He asked today how God takes us to heaven when we die...try to explain that one! He is VERY passionate about cars. I wish I knew more so that I could teach him more parts etc. I am actually hoping he starts thinking about other things because it's almost all he talks about:) Random tidbit: Kai says `Lellow' for yellow.
Kai is reminding me more and more of a mini Gary.
Koen chilling in the stroller with his leg up on the bar.
I told Kai he could not go upstairs to bed when he got home from preschool. While making dinner, I noticed that he was a little quiet....
Finally, we had some SUPER DUPER YUMMY Falafel's for dinner. I made them from our Moosewood Cookbook (vegetarian). I'm trying to eat a lot more vegetarian meals. The boys both loved the falafel's. It is a perfect way for Koen to get lots of protein. Soooooo easy to make. Yum. Yum.
*health update: so, um, ya. Had to go back on a minimal dose of beta blockers as my body fluctuates. So hard to know if its the meds making me better or my thyroid doing it on its own. My meds change daily. I still feel fabulous. Taking kids to the park + making a yummy dinner= Louise is back!*
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
I'm back!
I feel so good. I'd say I'm at 85% of normal Louise. I have baking in the oven, I started a load of laundry (the first laundry that I have done in 6 weeks, Gary has been doing it), and I have plans to make a wonderful salmon dinner (I think I made maybe 2 dinners from scratch in the past month). I am so, so, so, so thankful. I can carry full laundry baskets from upstairs down the basement while breathing normally!! Woohoo!! Last night, while praying with Kai, we finally prayed, `Thank you that mommy is feeling better' and Kai was so pumped. He was like `You're better? You're not sick anymore?'. The doctor warned me that there would be good and bad days but I'm not on my beta blockers anymore (as of last night)!!! I'm still on the other one which has a side effect of the metallic taste in my mouth, but yes, I'm feeling great.
(Kai putting his favourite's out of Koen's reach)
I feel very bad for my body. It has been so stressed for so long and it feels week and fragile. I need to make sure I take it easy but more than ever, I want to fuel my body with healthy foods. Last night I made a creamy spinach soup full of pureed veggies. Sure, I'll still eat my homemade cookies but I really want to make sure I'm eating tons of fruits and veggies. I'm also going to start eating less meat, other than salmon. So yes, I'm working on rebuilding my body back to 100% health and I just hope my thyroid continues to cooperate!
(Koen's pretend whiny face....pick me up! pick me up!)
I've realized that everyone thinks Koen is so young because he is so bald! Kai was too, at least they are boys, I think that's easier! Koen is maybe starting to work on his first teeth, but they won't be making an appearance anytime soon. I'm thankful. I've never actually breastfed a baby with teeth and I know tons of people do it but I'll admit that it freaks me out:)
(Koen's favourite thing to do; stand and clap. He claps all day long as if he's really proud of himself).
I'm really evaluating my priorities in life right now. I'm trying to decide how to have the most balanced life with minimal amounts of stress and anxiety. I think I'm getting worked up about returning to work in just 1.5 months. I feel that it's a lot harder getting 2 kids out of the house by 7:30am for daycare, especially since Koen normally sleeps til almost 8am.
After preschool, Kai is so tired and just wants to sleep but I don't want him to nap because then he won't sleep at night. It's so strange to hear him crying `But I just want to go to bed!'.
(Koen is going to develop some serious stability. Kai always `accidentally' walks by and tried to knock him over)
I really wanted to make it to the pumpkin patch to get our yearly pictures there but it's raining. Like crazy. I'm not sure that it will stop before the 31st. We may have to venture out there with umbrella's and rainboots:(
Koen feeding himself a bottle. I was on my way out so I saw him taking the bottle which I never get to see because the only reason he gets one is if I'm not there! I've got tons of milk in the freezer which I may give him when I go back to work. Haven't tried formula since the puking incident months ago.
I'm currently in the basement with Kai. I don't know why I didn't think of bringing the laptop down here before! Kai loves to just have me around while he plays, this worked perfectly:)
At lastly, Shaw sucks. Seriously. They shut off our modem yesterday because we owed them money. What? We owed them money? Thanks for the letting me know! We got the notice that we owed them money AFTER they did it. So mad. Why did we owe them money? We pay on our mastercard and Gary renewed his mastercard with a new expiry date so they stopped accepting it WITHOUT LETTING US KNOW.
Oh yes, one more thing, we should get our new and improved van back tonight!!! Woohoo!! Let's see what $5,000 added to van can do! It better last us another 10 years:)
*Note: van will be back tomorrow night...apparently we needed a new water pump too? Basically a whole new van it seems.*
(Kai putting his favourite's out of Koen's reach)
I feel very bad for my body. It has been so stressed for so long and it feels week and fragile. I need to make sure I take it easy but more than ever, I want to fuel my body with healthy foods. Last night I made a creamy spinach soup full of pureed veggies. Sure, I'll still eat my homemade cookies but I really want to make sure I'm eating tons of fruits and veggies. I'm also going to start eating less meat, other than salmon. So yes, I'm working on rebuilding my body back to 100% health and I just hope my thyroid continues to cooperate!
(Koen's pretend whiny face....pick me up! pick me up!)
I've realized that everyone thinks Koen is so young because he is so bald! Kai was too, at least they are boys, I think that's easier! Koen is maybe starting to work on his first teeth, but they won't be making an appearance anytime soon. I'm thankful. I've never actually breastfed a baby with teeth and I know tons of people do it but I'll admit that it freaks me out:)
(Koen's favourite thing to do; stand and clap. He claps all day long as if he's really proud of himself).
I'm really evaluating my priorities in life right now. I'm trying to decide how to have the most balanced life with minimal amounts of stress and anxiety. I think I'm getting worked up about returning to work in just 1.5 months. I feel that it's a lot harder getting 2 kids out of the house by 7:30am for daycare, especially since Koen normally sleeps til almost 8am.
After preschool, Kai is so tired and just wants to sleep but I don't want him to nap because then he won't sleep at night. It's so strange to hear him crying `But I just want to go to bed!'.
(Koen is going to develop some serious stability. Kai always `accidentally' walks by and tried to knock him over)
I really wanted to make it to the pumpkin patch to get our yearly pictures there but it's raining. Like crazy. I'm not sure that it will stop before the 31st. We may have to venture out there with umbrella's and rainboots:(
Koen feeding himself a bottle. I was on my way out so I saw him taking the bottle which I never get to see because the only reason he gets one is if I'm not there! I've got tons of milk in the freezer which I may give him when I go back to work. Haven't tried formula since the puking incident months ago.
I'm currently in the basement with Kai. I don't know why I didn't think of bringing the laptop down here before! Kai loves to just have me around while he plays, this worked perfectly:)
At lastly, Shaw sucks. Seriously. They shut off our modem yesterday because we owed them money. What? We owed them money? Thanks for the letting me know! We got the notice that we owed them money AFTER they did it. So mad. Why did we owe them money? We pay on our mastercard and Gary renewed his mastercard with a new expiry date so they stopped accepting it WITHOUT LETTING US KNOW.
Oh yes, one more thing, we should get our new and improved van back tonight!!! Woohoo!! Let's see what $5,000 added to van can do! It better last us another 10 years:)
*Note: van will be back tomorrow night...apparently we needed a new water pump too? Basically a whole new van it seems.*
Monday, October 19, 2009
Duh-duh-duuuuuuh!
That's how Kai introduces everything and it's so cute! Okay, I'm just gonna update on our family:
Kai
-his behaviour has really improved recently, the only thing that has gotten worse is that he will cry when I leave now. So strange.
-Kai was on the couch last night and he clenched up fists and shook them. I asked him what he was doing and he said, `My hands are shaking, I'm sick like you mommy!'.
-He likes to tell me what to say. The other day he said, `Mommy, say `you're so smart Kai!''. So I did and he said, `Really? I am? Thank you!'.
-Kai is getting to be a bit pickier with his eating. He doesn't like cheese or whipping cream.
-Kai and Koen are getting along much better, I'm LOVING it.
-Kai loves having Curious George read to him, especially `Curious George and the Dump Truck'.
-He is currently playing outside with the sand and water table...I said `Don't get dirty!'. Ya, right.
KOEN
-I am so in love with this guy!
-He sleeps from 7pm-8am every night. He was pretty sick this week so he did get up at 11pm sometimes with a coughing fit and I fed him to settle him down. Poor little guy. He even vomited up mucus and it was a lot. Gross.
-He is absolutely comatose around other people. He doesn't move, doesn't make a sound. As soon as it's just us in the house `dada aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah oooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhh mama buh buh mama'. And crawling, climbing, walking, wrestling away he goes. Silly guy. This guys does not perform for others, that's for sure!
(Walking at Mundy Park with friends. Yes, I wore rubber boots:)
(Just editing pictures from our shoot in Langley, aren't these guys cute and apparently much taller than I?!)
GARY
(Up at Grouse Mountain for a wedding last month)
-was on a hike in Manning Park for 4 days last week. Yes, I did it on my own! Go me!
-he was supposed to be sending me `ok' messages from his GPS and he thought he sent about 12 but I received none. I wasn't concerned. I assumed he had no reception or he didn't know how to work it and um, I was right:)
-he is a busy guy with work, photos, and life.
-he is now carpooling as our van is still in the shop:)
-he can get the best Koen giggles ever.
LOUISE (Yup, my turn!)
-went to the endocrinologist today and they were with me for 1.5 hours! First, the resident did a full physical exam which was very cool. Various tests for my muscle strength, reflexes, palpitations, etc I enjoyed talking with them (both resident and endocrinologist were females) and they made me feel so comfortable.
-my heart rate, which as been lower the past 3 days (by low, I mean about 88bpm), decided to go down to 60?! I was like `Please believe me, it hasn't been this low in 6 weeks!'. She believed me. At least I have other symptoms that she could look at (trembling hands, sweaty, weight loss, hair falling out, easy bruising).
-So, likely I have Post Partum Thryoiditis. It is possible that I have Graves (life long hyperthyroidism) but they are not testing because I would need to stop breastfeeding. I would've stopped if necessary but the dr said there was no need to do the test because the treatment is the same and she said it was better for me to continue breastfeeding. Nice lady.
-so, when will I be better?? Well, I have been steadily getting better. Likely, if PPT, by 3 months (January), I will be better. It will take one complete year to be `normal'. If I have another child, which I really would like, there is a 50% chance this will happen again. I guess the positive side of it happening again is that I will get it treated immediately AND I would lose that baby weight:)
-walking is all I should be doing now and I am okay being patient with that now.
-finally, one major concern (for me) with the thyroid, is depression. I have been super conscious of my mental state and have done okay so far. The doctor was like, `Some people even cry during commercials!'. Uh, I do that anyways:)
Okay, better play with my Kai bear.
Kai
-his behaviour has really improved recently, the only thing that has gotten worse is that he will cry when I leave now. So strange.
-Kai was on the couch last night and he clenched up fists and shook them. I asked him what he was doing and he said, `My hands are shaking, I'm sick like you mommy!'.
-He likes to tell me what to say. The other day he said, `Mommy, say `you're so smart Kai!''. So I did and he said, `Really? I am? Thank you!'.
-Kai is getting to be a bit pickier with his eating. He doesn't like cheese or whipping cream.
-Kai and Koen are getting along much better, I'm LOVING it.
-Kai loves having Curious George read to him, especially `Curious George and the Dump Truck'.
-He is currently playing outside with the sand and water table...I said `Don't get dirty!'. Ya, right.
KOEN
-I am so in love with this guy!
-He sleeps from 7pm-8am every night. He was pretty sick this week so he did get up at 11pm sometimes with a coughing fit and I fed him to settle him down. Poor little guy. He even vomited up mucus and it was a lot. Gross.
-He is absolutely comatose around other people. He doesn't move, doesn't make a sound. As soon as it's just us in the house `dada aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah oooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhh mama buh buh mama'. And crawling, climbing, walking, wrestling away he goes. Silly guy. This guys does not perform for others, that's for sure!
(Walking at Mundy Park with friends. Yes, I wore rubber boots:)
(Just editing pictures from our shoot in Langley, aren't these guys cute and apparently much taller than I?!)
GARY
(Up at Grouse Mountain for a wedding last month)
-was on a hike in Manning Park for 4 days last week. Yes, I did it on my own! Go me!
-he was supposed to be sending me `ok' messages from his GPS and he thought he sent about 12 but I received none. I wasn't concerned. I assumed he had no reception or he didn't know how to work it and um, I was right:)
-he is a busy guy with work, photos, and life.
-he is now carpooling as our van is still in the shop:)
-he can get the best Koen giggles ever.
LOUISE (Yup, my turn!)
-went to the endocrinologist today and they were with me for 1.5 hours! First, the resident did a full physical exam which was very cool. Various tests for my muscle strength, reflexes, palpitations, etc I enjoyed talking with them (both resident and endocrinologist were females) and they made me feel so comfortable.
-my heart rate, which as been lower the past 3 days (by low, I mean about 88bpm), decided to go down to 60?! I was like `Please believe me, it hasn't been this low in 6 weeks!'. She believed me. At least I have other symptoms that she could look at (trembling hands, sweaty, weight loss, hair falling out, easy bruising).
-So, likely I have Post Partum Thryoiditis. It is possible that I have Graves (life long hyperthyroidism) but they are not testing because I would need to stop breastfeeding. I would've stopped if necessary but the dr said there was no need to do the test because the treatment is the same and she said it was better for me to continue breastfeeding. Nice lady.
-so, when will I be better?? Well, I have been steadily getting better. Likely, if PPT, by 3 months (January), I will be better. It will take one complete year to be `normal'. If I have another child, which I really would like, there is a 50% chance this will happen again. I guess the positive side of it happening again is that I will get it treated immediately AND I would lose that baby weight:)
-walking is all I should be doing now and I am okay being patient with that now.
-finally, one major concern (for me) with the thyroid, is depression. I have been super conscious of my mental state and have done okay so far. The doctor was like, `Some people even cry during commercials!'. Uh, I do that anyways:)
Okay, better play with my Kai bear.
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